i am becky white

I started my first blog in early 2000. I liked to think of myself as an early adopter, creating a place where I could write when I felt inspired during a time in which they were still called 'weblogs.'

Back then, my blog focused primarily on health & fitness, things I was passionate about at the time as a college athlete. Don't get me wrong, I still love those things. But I have evolved since early 2000 - a lot.

As I was deciding what direction to go, I felt that creating a completely new blog and space was right for me. I wanted to create a space that would relate to more people, possibly those in similar stages of life, but most important, a space that was positive, refreshing and fun.

So, here it is. I Am Becky White.

And now you might be wondering why I chose this title to begin with.

For many years I hid behind different insecurities. I didn't want to be in the spotlight too much for fear of being judged. I didn't want to do too little because I feared that I would be seen as lazy or unaccomplished. I was afraid of speaking up because I didn't want to hurt or offend someone. I said 'yes' to things I was not passionate about because I wanted to feel accepted and a part of something great. I was judged for being too big. I lost weight and was judged for being too skinny. I was criticized for being too much of this or too much of that. I began to feel depressed, confused and wondering why I even tried. No matter what I did it was criticized by someone and I began to wonder who I was. I lost my identity as Becky White and was living to try to make everyone else around me happy all the time, which in case you don't know, is a huge recipe for disaster. Oh, and it will make you a total hot mess.

I'm 36 years old now (omg....I just gave you my real age publicly) but there is something extremely significant that happens when you hit you mid-30's. You just don't care to give your time, energy, focus and relationships to people and things that are not worthy. You begin to truly know who you are, what you stand for, what you believe in and what makes you the most happy.

And for me those things include my family, close friends, businesses, clients, health and hobbies that keep me sane and living life with exuberance.

I recently saw the movie The Greatest Showman.

Okay, quick side note. If you have not seen this movie yet, please do yourself a favor and go see it. Today. If you are looking for a historically accurate account of P.T. Barnum's life, you won't find it in this movie. If you are an activist who is ready to claim all the wrong-doings of Mr. Barnum, please, realize that most people know there were no so great actions done by this man. However, if you are looking for cinematic magic, you will find it with this film. I've always been a fan of Hugh Jackman, but his singing and dancing in this movie will give you a new appreciation of the creative talent that he is. Beyond Mr. Jackman, you have an ensemble of extremely talented actors and actresses. Oh, and the soundtrack... let me just say I have played it on repeat for at least a week straight.

Which brings me back to my point - In The Greatest Showman, the song This is Me, sung by Keala Settle is my new anthem.

When the sharpest words wanna cut me down

I'm gonna send a flood, gonna drown them out

I am brave, I am bruised

I am who I'm meant to be, this is me

Look out 'cause here I come

And I'm marching on to the beat I drum

I'm not scared to be seen

I make no apologies, this is me

Now, after you read that, simply say, "I AM {Insert Your Name Here}."


There is something powerful about accepting who you are - and being okay with it. And I mean being really okay with it, flaws and all. I read a book a couple of years ago by Joel Osteen titled, The Power of I Am: Two Words that Will Change Your Life Today, and just like the lyrics above, a quote resonated with me and changed my outlook on life greatly.

“Whatever follows the “I am” will eventually find you.”

So, I guess you could say my inspiration from this blog came from a couple of different sources, but sources that inspired me to be okay with who I am. Life isn't always perfect. It's messy. In a world of social media and Instagram filters, it's nice to see authenticity and real. That's what you'll get here on this blog, sprinkled with motivation, travel, my favorite things, navigating the joys of parenthood and creating my best life.



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